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A Rich Inheritance:Soul Notes – Love, Wendy

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There’s something so heartwarming about watching your adult children in their own homes, re-creating the ordinary moments they once observed growing up—hosting a gathering, preparing a meal, or parenting with so much love and affection.

I notice the way they interact with others. Their words and actions reflect respect, empathy, and a genuine sense of human connection…

I notice the way they care for me, and about me on their visits home where they are genuinely excited to spend quality time together…demonstrating a deep love that is unconditional.

And…I learn new things from them as I quietly observe their actions and interactions.

I smile. I reflect. I see myself in my children…I see the future…and in the blink of an eye, their children will see themselves in theirs.

And yes, of course I made mistakes—many of them. That’s part of being human.

But I believe that when we make mistakes with young eyes watching, and then do the work to repair them…aligning our words with our behavior—we are also modeling problem-solving, humility, accountability, and character.

I am proud of the woman I became—one who chose self-love, curiosity, compassion, resilience, and forgiveness.

Perhaps that’s the greatest legacy we leave behind…not perfection, but the courage to rise each day within the vortex and choose to keep becoming.

Our children inherit all of it. Then they choose what to carry forward and what to leave behind.

Growth became part of my family’s inheritance.

And that may be the richest legacy of all.

You can take that to the bank.

Love and blessings,

Wendy

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“Radical Acceptance: That I Would Be Good” – Love, Wendy

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Tara Brach tells the story of Marilyn sitting with her dying mother night after night, holding her hand, meditating with her, and telling her she loved her. Most of the time her mother was unconscious. Then, shortly before her death, she opened her eyes and looked directly at her daughter and said:

“All my life I thought something was wrong with me.”

Tara writes that the mother then gently shook her head, as if to say, “What a waste,” closed her eyes, and drifted back into a coma. She died shortly afterward. 

That story appears near the beginning of Radical Acceptance as an illustration of what Brach calls the “trance of unworthiness”—the heartbreaking belief that we are fundamentally flawed, deficient, or not enough. Brach uses the story to show how many people carry that burden for an entire lifetime, only realizing near the end that the belief itself was never true. 

Reading that passage can hit especially hard when you’re grieving. What moved me isn’t just the sadness of the mother’s realization…it’s the daughter’s presence. Marilyn couldn’t change her mother’s past, but she gave her something precious at the end: love, companionship, and acceptance…

Sometimes that’s the most important gift we can offer another human being. ❤️

This passage went straight to my heart…I spent much of my life believing something was wrong with me but the truth is that I was shaped by circumstances beyond my control as a young child, and the effects followed me well into adulthood. In these past 14 years of my recovery from prescription drug addiction, I have realized that this woman has discovered there was never anything “wrong” with me.

The tragedy in this passage from the book, Radical Acceptance, wasn’t that she was flawed…

The tragedy was that she believed she was.

Unlike the woman in the story, I am not realizing it in the final hours of my life.

I AM realizing it now.

I still have time to challenge that old belief every single time it appears…

I suffered. I made mistakes. I lost things I wish I hadn’t lost. And I spent many years believing those experiences meant I was defective…

I don’t see waste.

I see myself as someone who has fought incredibly hard to stay alive, stay sober, stay loving, and stay open-hearted despite carrying more pain than most people know.

I am a human being who suffered, coped in destructive ways for a time, paid a heavy price, and then spent the past 14 years doing the difficult work of recovery and healing…”becoming.”

The grief I intermittently experience is real because there are losses that can never be fully undone.

But grief is not proof of defectiveness.

Regret is not proof of defectiveness.

Even addiction is not proof of defectiveness.

And today…I do not “waste” another present moment in the past.

I live with purpose, with love, and with great anticipation of experiencing what comes next.

Yes, there is grief behind me…and possibility ahead of me.

Love and blessings,

Wendy

Afterthought:

You are never required to become flawless in order to be worthy of love. – Love, Wendy

“That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you…” – Alanis Morrisette

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From A Distance:Soul Notes – Love, Wendy

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I have been researching and studying “low engagement responding” aka a way of avoiding deep conversation and connection. This pattern is more often a form of emotional distancing. People who carry unresolved resentment toward a parent or loved one sometimes manage it by limiting emotional contact rather than confronting the feelings directly.

It is important to remember that this silence is about THEIR capacity, not your worth as a parent, person, or family member.

Sometimes family systems can get stuck in old roles. When one person heals, others don’t update the picture of who that person is. They keep relating to the former version. It is very difficult to have a healthy relationship in this space, as you are living in the present while they may still be reacting to the past. And if there are others aligned with where they are, it only causes more emotional distancing and “low engagement responding.” THIS is on THEM.

They may not be capable of forgiveness or resolving their own unhealthy thinking and behaviors, and sometimes they may feel that this is punishment that is still “justified.”

This is their “fixed mindset” versus your “growth mindset.” A “fixed mindset” keeps people stuck in needing to be right.

LIVE. YOUR. LIFE. It can be incredibly painful…sit with that as often as you need to, but do not allow it to define you or to deplete you.

If you have done years of inner work and they cannot relate, or choose not to meet you where you are, that is not your failure—it is their limitation…

Even family may be those people that we must love from a distance, without expectation, without chasing connection that they are unwilling or unable to give.

This is a widely studied topic of today where more and more parents and families are finding younger generations relying on low engagement and emotional distance as a way to navigate unresolved feelings rather than openly communicating.

Love and blessings,

Wendy