It is said that everyone loves a comeback story. This is especially true for the woman who came back from a life of substance use disorder and co-occurring disorders. The woman with an inspirational story to share that offers hope to others struggling with this disease. A woman that nearly died of this disease in early 2013, but she lived.
On April 2, 2013, I got ready for bed and in a moment where I had some clarity, I dropped to my knees and asked the Universe/God/Spirit to please help me save my life. I said, “God/Universe/Spirit, if you show me the way out of this, I will devote my life to any path you put before me.”
I have always felt a deep spiritual connection to the Universe through music, and said to the Universe at the end of my prayer, “In the next song on the radio, please give me a sign that you are with me.” I sat down on the edge of my bed, turned on the radio, and the first song to play was, “Jesus, Take the Wheel.” The words touched my heart, and I became so emotional. “Jesus, take the wheel, take it from my hands. I can’t do this on my own. I’m letting go… So give me one more chance. Save me from this road I’m on. Jesus, take the wheel.”
I went to bed knowing that I would soon be given specific guidance from the Universe that would ultimately save my life. I woke up the next morning and I heard a strong intuitive voice say to me, “Call for help. It is time.” And I heard this voice tell me that “everything is going to be alright.” I have been listening to that voice ever since. April 3, 2013 was the day that my life was saved by the Grace of God.
Since that time I have been physically and mentally recovering through healthy practices in nutrition, exercise, talk therapy, sleep hygiene, and other healthy self-care practices. I have been spiritually recovering through working with my spiritual advisor, Sheila Pearl, and studying the teachings of Gabby Bernstein, Marianne Williamson, Wayne Dyer, and others who are world renowned Spiritual teachers and motivational and transformational teachers/speakers. I have worked with a brilliant Mind Coach, David Rahman, who has provided me with tools to reset my mindset with his specific “Let It Go” program. I have studied some of the Metaphysical text, A Course in Miracles, and have learned new perspectives and new thought patterns that have reset my mindset and my behaviors, which offer successful outcomes in my “new normal.”
A Course in Miracles teaches that a miracle is à shift in perception, where we come from a place of openness and willingness to change, and from a place of love and forgiveness. The moment that we choose to perceive our lives with love, and treat ourselves with the utmost love and care, and we forgive ourselves and others, we can create a miraculous change.
I am aware that I must never take my disease for granted, as it is cunning and sneaky and will show up when I least expect it to, and so I must always remain mindful of my disease.
Through the experience of love and forgiveness, and openness to resetting our mindset to transform our lives through a variety of healthy practices, the miracle occurs.
Reset our mindset; change our behaviors and practices; change our outcome. Living a holistic life in recovery has been this for me, and it is how I sustain my recovery successfully. One day at a time, one moment at a time, I have been mindfully reprogramming my body, mind and spirit on a cellular level: healthy organic food choices that promote wellness; shifting my thoughts from fear to love; moving from old habits, people, places and things that did not serve me to new ways that enhance my life and the lives of those around me. I have rebuilt my relationships, I have a career that I am so passionate about, and I am healthy and thriving! This is my choice.
Wellness is MY choice with every decision that I make throughout each moment of the day, from what I choose to eat to the relationships that I choose to have to practicing daily self-care. Wellness is not just about healthy nutrition and exercise.
Wellness is about our self-talk. Our cells hear everything that we say to ourselves. Positive mindset and happy healthy thoughts promote wellness on a cellular level as self-care is the way we stand in our power. Self-care leads to wellness, and wellness is our ultimate power. When we allow our intuition to speak to us, and we listen to our own truth regardless of what anyone else thinks, we reconnect with our own inspiration, and that inspiration becomes our guide.
My willingness to be open and to follow my own inspiration through my intuition, was the catalyst for my greatest change where I was willing to listen to, accept, and work through my truth. This is the reason I am blessed to share my journey.
All that it takes to begin is the willingness to follow our intuition, to explore options, to reset our mindset, and to make changes in which we practice ongoing commitment to a new and healthy lifestyle!
I have learned that we must let go of expectations. A moment of trying your best is your only expectation in recovery and/or creating a new healthy lifestyle. Hold yourself accountable for that. Forgiveness lets you off the hook. Put down the brick. Realign yourself with love and forgiveness. This is the catalyst for your greatest change. Stand deeply in your faith, and expect that your recovery/new lifestyle changes will have ups and downs, but that you are strong enough to withstand the changes when you are armed with tools, when you work hard and crave recovery, when you surround yourself with a support system filled with love and guidance, and when you accept change, and are willing to change your mindset to transform your life.
This is my miracle, and I expect nothing less as I continue to stand deeply in my faith, practice self-care and self-love, and be of service to others.
Please remember this: Spiritual solutions and self-care have been at the foundation of my recovery where I am thriving. When we practice self-care and are feeling well, we stand in our power. When we practice connection to a Higher Source—whatever that means for each of us individually—we are always lovingly protected, guided, and supported, and we stand even stronger in our power.
We all have mental health, and our mental and physical health are directly correlated. We sometimes feel well on the continuum, and sometimes we feel unwell depending upon what is going on within us, and around us. It is up to us to be aware of our own signs and symptoms as we begin to feel unwell, and of what we need to move back to wellness. Inherently, we all know what we need to heal, and it will be different for everyone, and will change over one’s lifetime. We must practice prevention in removing ourselves from anything toxic including foods, thoughts, and relationships. Most importantly, we must know that when we have done all that we can to move ourselves back to wellness, and we aren’t successful, we must understand that it is a healthy decision and the highest form of self-care to ask for professional help. When we are unwell physically and remain unwell for an extended period of time, we go to the doctor. We must practice the same type of self-care when it applies to our mental health. Healthy practices body, mind, and spirit promote wellness. Wellness is our power in recovery!
Wishing you harmonious health for life!
With deep gratitude, love, and blessings,